For many years of my life I have drifted aimlessly with no purpose or goals in mind, I hope to change that starting with this blog. I will be writing about what makes me the person that I am: the experiences in life, the friends I have, and the countless forms of entertainment in my library - like any other blog you can find on the internet. This one will have an importance to me in that I will also be tracking my personal goals, and therefore, give me a reason to follow through with these goals. I need this right now to push myself, and I do hope to make myself proud by reaching these goals.
Some of these may be relatively basic in comparison to what others view as major life goals but I've fallen a bit behind in life and need to do this at my own pace.
- Get a full time job that I can enjoy - 40 hours a week.
- Save up roughly 18-20k over the course of a couple of years. (It IS possible, believe it or not)
- Make the move I've always wanted to California.
For those of you who don't know me, I'll take this time to fill you in on who I am. Those who do know me may even find some new information here as well.
I was born with Cystic Fibrosis, a disease that was caused by a defect in one of my chromosomal pairs resulting in my body missing a chloride ion channel, this gene effects a great deal of the body's systems. Sweat, mucous production, and digestive enzyme production being the hallmarks. My health deteriorated on a rather slow rate until the age of about 15 when it became worse very quickly, repeated episodes of pneumothorax (rupture of the lung wall, resulting in air entering the cavity between the lungs and the ribs) caused my lung function to deteriorate at an alarming rate. It was during this time when I believe I developed the core of a strong depression that has held me within its talons until very recently. These episodes were developing due to no intervention on my part. I would cough in my sleep and wake up with the telltale chest pain. I began believing that, no matter what I did, my end result would always end in disaster due to outside influences that were outside of my control.
Fortunately, when I was 17 I received a lung transplant and have been able to lead a relatively normal life. This depression continued, however. This resulted in my lack of effort in school endeavors which have resulted in being the unlucky recipient of a failing college GPA. This depression became worse as time grew on and it was left unchecked and untreated. It hit its peak most recently, I was seeing myself in an infinitely negative light. After talking it over with a friend of mine online - who did the smartest thing, just letting me vent until I came to the conclusion on my own - I remembered the core of my depression and realized how absolutely illogical my thought process was. This was a mere few days ago.
I am going to be using this blogger as a site for keeping myself in good spirits and to track my progress toward my goals.
Finally, a point that I've been debating. I'm planning on putting a PayPal link on this blog. My medication costs are fairly high and any help in whittling those down every month is great. As of now, I'd be satisfied if I could pull off $500 per month, just to cover the COBRA payments. I get enough visitors who don't mind donating, this could probably be chopped up to a tiny bit per person. I'm not going to rely on it, by any means. I also want to ensure that any money I get through that donation would go toward medication costs, even if I procure insurance in the near future, the copays on medications are still pretty heinous.
Well, I do hope I'm able to entertain, inform, and never bore. Sit back and enjoy the view, everybody.
-Michael "Krall" Schumacher
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